I haven’t had a crush on a boy in forever… Like a real crush where I get giddy when I get a text from him, and when he calls me I get nervous. And when I see him… my stomach goes insane with butterflies in it. I haven’t felt that since you left… and I really hope I can feel that again. But not with you, with someone who cares.
It’s amazing how people can be like “No one understands, no one can relate to what I’m going through right now.” People will be in such a sad and depressed state that they “think” they can’t get out of, a part in their life that nobody can relate to. But then a song, one simple 3 minutes and 40 seconds that can change all of that and that can give people hope. And in that moment that nobody can relate, the whole world seems better. And some person out there understands you. And that my friends is just one small beautiful part of music and what it can do to you. Also, it’s one of the many reasons I am in love with music.
I want to be a better and different person… but it’s really hard to just change who I am completely. Maybe school will change me for the best and maybe I can meet a new group of friends, even though I love my friends now. Don’t get me wrong I love my friends I have now, but I just need a BIG change.
-I didn’t “leave” or take a break. I’ve just been trying to work on me and save because my life isn’t as easy as yours.
-I just wish I could have everything handed to me and that I didn’t have to try so hard to get even a fraction of what these other people just so easily come across.
-I’m sick of trying and I’m sick of you lying.
-This is honestly to much, you should know that this isn’t good. I’m scared for you. I want you to know that I completely support you and your decision but I want something better for you. I want you to be able to follow your dreams and complete everything that ever dreamed of. I know you can, but this is just going to set you back. I don’t want you to think I’m attacking you because I’m not, and that’s why I’m not telling you these things.
-You’re playing with my emotions, and I just don’t want you to be there if your going to hurt me or speak to me when you want to. I’ve already gone through this and I don’t want to do it again.
-I need to change the way I live, and the way I think because I’m way to torn to make a choice about this.
-I want to be like you, but I can’t even do that without being though of as someone who “copies”.
-I don’t have anyone to turn to, and I’ve learned to live with that.
-My cousin might be moving to the house next door, yeeeees :)
-I miss you.
